Finally Over 🎉🎆

For the past year and so, I felt so lost into one person that would practically control every aspect of me whenever we were together. Although he never harmed me, I would feel weak around him. My entire personality of a dominant woman and slight control freak would change into a weak person whose will would never be important enough. He always came first and I was always okay with it, in fact, I encouraged this behaviour with the aim to satisfy him. Making him happy somehow would make me happy. However, every now and then, I’d wake up to reality, break things up and go back to my life. Somehow, after some time (weeks, at some point months) he would contact me and I would go back crawling to him like that weak and miserable persona that I would always turn to. I never understood how he had so much power over me. I never understood why I would always prioritise him when in fact, it’s wrong. When you have such a rotten foundation, there is absolutely no point in trying to move forward because the future will be as ugly if not worse.

Today I am happy. Today I managed to feel free from him in a different way where he is no longer the ghost I keep writing about. The ghost who keeps haunting me. I sent him a goodbye text and blocked his number. I also marked it as a spam number just in case there’s a glitch of some kind and a text or call comes through, by being marked as spam, I will never get a notification for it. I deleted his number and I said my goodbyes. I think it’s finally over. I think I am finally free from this person.

What was I waiting for
Waiting for the bubble to burst
Over your stagnant pauses
Can’t cure what your devil don’t see
Or light a fire below the death of me
We’ve shot through all over our causes
Days spin through my heart
That sever the love
Kill all the pain with shame
I won’t be lost without you
I’ve found a way to get through
Now I’m up and running
Strong enough to walk away
And leave you all alone
I won’t be lost
What were you waiting for
Waiting for the straw to break
Over the back of desperate ways
You were a dream to me
Now you’re nothing but a heart
that bleeds
I’ll wash you off and carry on
Days spin through my heart
That sever the love
Kill all the pain with shame
I won’t be lost without you
I’ve found a way to get through
Now I’m up and running
Strong enough to walk away
And leave you all alone
I won’t be lost

And when I see you
I find another reason
To keep myself from getting lost in you
Skin – Lost

Losing My Religion

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Your Number One.”

US chart – Mariah Carey (okay…)
UK chart – The Clash (more up my street!)

#1 Alternative song on my birthday however… REM’s Losing my Religion. I had no idea that this was a number one at that time, I love this song.

Every whisper
Of every waking hour
I’m choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt, lost and blinded fool, fool
Oh no, I’ve said too much
I set it up

Consider this
Consider this, the hint of the century
Consider this, the slip
That brought me to my knees, failed
What if all these fantasies come
Flailing around
Now I’ve said too much

I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream

One A Day: Macarena!

Day 29: A song from your childhood

A song from my childhood… I was only two years old when this came out (according to Google). But I remember growing up dancing to this and I still remember the choreography haha!

Previous Entries:

  1. My Favourite Song
  2. Least Favourite Song
  3. Happy Song!
  4. Sad Song…
  5. Best Friend
  6. Call It Home
  7. An Event
  8. Know All Lyrics
  9. Push It Baby!
  10. Moonlight Serenade
  11. Just a Great One
  12. A Song From a Band I hate
  13. [Skipped]
  14. Beyonce? Really??
  15. So What!
  16. Hate is a Strong Word…
  17. Radio Hit
  18. Digital Bath
  19. Parachutes
  20. Best of You
  21. Hey Ya!
  22. We Might As Well…
  23. Hold My Hand
  24. Highway to Hell
  25. Inflatable You
  26. Accidentally Acoustic
  27. Diary of Jane
  28. [Skipped]

One A Day: Diary of Jane

Okay, before Riccardo kicks my virtual derriĂ©re, I shall complete this song challenge that was meant to last 30 consecutive days and well, 6 months later and we’re still here, thanks to me!

Day 27: A song that you wish you could play

This was THE FIRST song that popped my mind, the acoustic version in particular.

Day 28: Skipping this nonsense. Surely Riccardo will come up with a logical way to approach this!

Riccardo, head’s up. day 29 is scheduled for tomorrow morning.

Previous Entries:

  1. My Favourite Song
  2. Least Favourite Song
  3. Happy Song!
  4. Sad Song…
  5. Best Friend
  6. Call It Home
  7. An Event
  8. Know All Lyrics
  9. Push It Baby!
  10. Moonlight Serenade
  11. Just a Great One
  12. A Song From a Band I hate
  13. [Skipped]
  14. Beyonce? Really??
  15. So What!
  16. Hate is a Strong Word…
  17. Radio Hit
  18. Digital Bath
  19. Parachutes
  20. Best of You
  21. Hey Ya!
  22. We Might As Well…
  23. Hold My Hand
  24. Highway to Hell
  25. Inflatable You
  26. Accidentally Acoustic

One A Day: Accidentally Acoustic

Day 26: A song that you can play in an instrument

I can play this on my acoustic guitar, very easy power chords….

No, it has nothing to do with Shrek, I used to like Counting Crows.

Previous Entries:

  1. My Favourite Song
  2. Least Favourite Song
  3. Happy Song!
  4. Sad Song…
  5. Best Friend
  6. Call It Home
  7. An Event
  8. Know All Lyrics
  9. Push It Baby!
  10. Moonlight Serenade
  11. Just a Great One
  12. A Song From a Band I hate
  13. [Skipped]
  14. Beyonce? Really??
  15. So What!
  16. Hate is a Strong Word…
  17. Radio Hit
  18. Digital Bath
  19. Parachutes
  20. Best of You
  21. Hey Ya!
  22. We Might As Well…
  23. Hold My Hand
  24. Highway to Hell
  25. Inflatable You

One A Day: Highway to Hell

Day 24: A song that you want to play at your funeral

I know, very very predictable! Similarly to the previous challenge, I have decided to select the first song that crossed my mind.

Previous Entries:

  1. My Favourite Song
  2. Least Favourite Song
  3. Happy Song!
  4. Sad Song…
  5. Best Friend
  6. Call It Home
  7. An Event
  8. Know All Lyrics
  9. Push It Baby!
  10. Moonlight Serenade
  11. Just a Great One
  12. A Song From a Band I hate
  13. [Skipped]
  14. Beyonce? Really??
  15. So What!
  16. Hate is a Strong Word…
  17. Radio Hit
  18. Digital Bath
  19. Parachutes
  20. Best of You
  21. Hey Ya!
  22. We Might As Well…
  23. Hold My Hand

One A Day: Hold My Hand

Day 23: A song that you want to play at your wedding

With a little love, and some tenderness
We’ll walk upon the water
We’ll rise above this mess
With a little peace, and some harmony
We’ll take the world together
We’ll take ’em by the hand
‘Cause I’ve got a hand for you
‘Cause I wanna run with you

Hootie and The Blowfish – Hold my hand

This is the first song that popped my mind. It’s far from one of my favourite songs and I know I could come up with something more my style but I didn’t really want to spend much time with this challenge in particular. I have mixed feelings about the whole ideology behind it and if I ever get married, I see myself eloping more than having the traditional catholic style wedding – or even a civil ceremony with an after party.

Previous Entries:

  1. My Favourite Song
  2. Least Favourite Song
  3. Happy Song!
  4. Sad Song…
  5. Best Friend
  6. Call It Home
  7. An Event
  8. Know All Lyrics
  9. Push It Baby!
  10. Moonlight Serenade
  11. Just a Great One
  12. A Song From a Band I hate
  13. [Skipped]
  14. Beyonce? Really??
  15. So What!
  16. Hate is a Strong Word…
  17. Radio Hit
  18. Digital Bath
  19. Parachutes
  20. Best of You
  21. Hey Ya!
  22. We Might As Well…